《PDC - SELF INVENTORY & ALTER EGOS》

＊THOUGHTS AND OBSERVATION＊

To me, the world is full of illusion. I love to experience it and to share them with the others. This is my passion.I love negative emotion. It has it’s darkness spiritual that gives you power of sadness. I also love positive emotion. It has it’s lightness spiritual that gives you power of happiness. The balance between two is justice and love. I am more in negative emotion.

＊THE SELF-INVENTORY＊

One:

Drink
UK is world number one country for drink out. When you get drunk like them, you feel it right that way. Somehow, things get different sometimes when you‘re sober. When you sober, stand backward and look at them again. You feel totally different. You will tell your friend next to you, ‘why these people like that!? Can you see what he’s trying to do? My god, he can’t even hold his drink. This is absolutely wasted. I feel sorry for them’ at this moment, your friend’s going to answer, ‘yes, mate, it is disgusting, isn’t it.’ Next day, another club, bartender sits back on the station and murmuring the same thing. You and your friend are doing exactly the same thing, get drunk.

Live
Life is fucking boring. I saw a weird housemate, who can only eat and go to toilet. He’s life is wake up in the morning go to work (part time somewhere) and earn little money. Afterwards, he comes back with a lot of foods bought from Tesco and stand there planning how to cook. He is always thinking about how to cook and how to eat. This seems a serious issue for him everyday. He spend all night in kitchen eating and cooking again and again, then he goes to toilet, then he go back to room with few packs special priced rich tea biscuits. He come down to toilet again and then shower, soon he go to lounge wash his dirty clothes, come back watch stupid television program and enjoy that little private time in the room with a roll of cheap toilet paper holding in hands. After all, he look at the sky, thinking about something, look back to the television, his eye is losing energy, become white and pale. He soon turns off the television and goes to bed. As soon as he lying down on the bed, his brain soon start calculated how many food to buy tomorrow and how to cook them and how much he needs to eat, he suddenly feel tired and fall in to deep sleep.

Two:

Small potato
I work hard and I‘ve been waiting. It seems that I can never hear any compliment from the boss. I then wait again. One day, suddenly I realize that nobody actually care about me. I’m too small to be seen. I thought my chance will come, chance already gone, unconsciously, time passing away, I get old and I go die. I’m not even worth a penny. This is what real world looks like? World is like a massive piece of mirror, it reflects all human’s behavior back to us. Showing who cares and who don’t.

Three:

Old boy
27 is coming. I’m old. I am a typical old boy. I am a very old old boy. I can’t stand with people who live in the real world; I can’t stand with people who live in the illusion world either. I’m fucking old, I’m a very fucking old old boy. I am millennium nowhere.

A dream
I’m peacefully lying down on the air; it’s just like normal sleeping position but in sky high. There are several strong electronic kind of light around me, it flash in a splash. When my body need to piss or drop a bomb, it will automatically been stream way.

Lonely person
I’m the isolator who feeling lonely. It seems so difficult for us to be trust, it is scary, and can not figure out the right way of communicate to the world. It’s been blocked, as usual. I just don’t know how to open the door. How?

＊ALTER EGOS＊

Character from literature/fiction

1. 孫悟空songokuu – famous character from a book call ‘journal to west’, he represent honest, justice and ambition.
2. 漩渦鳴人uzumaki naruto – fiction character from Japan, a ninja. He represent passion, belief and ego-trip.
3. 不動明王Acalanatha – god of battle, represent justice, truthfulness , accuracy and power against evil.

Character from public figures

1. 李小龍 Bruce lee – famous east fighting star, represent smart, motivation, true spirit of martial art and reputation.
2. 北野武 Takeshi Kitano – famous Japanese director, represent artistic, autistic, violence and ambiversion.
3. 金城武 Takashi Kaneshiro – superstar in Japan, represent charming, traditional Asian feature and trust.

Character from people I know or I have known

1. 陳佳kaka – represent love , passion, positive
2. 莫耀威Liam – represent friendship, leader ability, charming.
3. 錢日文Edmond – represent social skill, easy going, optimistic.

Character of myself

noel - represent Justice, liberty, passion, emotion, love, power, fantasy, traditional spiritual, violence and endure.